CuiTing

Thursday, April 23, 2009

OUR CHOIR ATTAINED A SILVER! :D

GREAT JOB EVEYONE! (:

THANKS, ESP TO SENIORS WHO KEPT US GOING ALL THESE WHILE, WITH THEIR ENCOURAGEMENT AND MOTIVATION! ^^

WE (L) YOU AND WILL MISS YOU! <3

SWISS CHOIR, ALL THE WAY! 0.0

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Tuesday, April 21, 2009

i'm facing a blank post but i have lots of thoughts going through my mind right now.

it's been days i have lost in touch with the world out there.

these days are a nightmare to me. how i wish i can really wake up from it, but you know, things always go the bad way and i'm fated to have this nightmare.

dealing with pain ; itch ; medicines... but you know what, those doesn't really matters. what matters is...

i have to forgo this year's syf...

when the doctor gave me that particular expression which i last wanted or never ever wish to see, that's it.

i knew that i have to accept this cruel fact and reality. i can't run away.

but guess what, at that instant, my first tear rolled down uncontrollably.

...

when people asked me "hey cuiting, how are you feeling? are you feeling better? omg! how did you get it? are you really alright? it's a pity that you have to miss syf, haiz..."

those were really painful moments where i have to bear and grit my teeth and say " i'm okay. thanks for your concern. i'll get better."

along with a smile, i have to reply.

but deep inside my heart, it is grieving. it hurts.

...

we have been putting in effort in preparing for this year's syf since last year.

everything is well and fine.

fate let me rise to the top but left me tumbling down the slope where all is just one week away.

...

i went to visit choir's blog.

there they were.

those non-erasable memories where my comrades and i battle against this 'war'.

listening to the songs that we sang, seeing those photos, reading seniors' encouragement, sensing the excitement that each and every member has,

i suddenly felt lost.

closing my eyes, pictures of swiss choir drifted in.

how i realised, i have grown so attached and dedicated to it.

i am a human who has feelings-

who will laugh when there is joy,

who will feel afraid when there is fear,

and of course, tear when i feel upset...

upon opening my eyes, i whispered to myself:

" i'm sorry for not being able to join you all in creating this extraordinary memory and miracle"

" i really wanted to... really... from the bottom of my heart... really"

...

to swiss choir, if you all happened to see my post:

"go for it. shine brightly and glamourously on stage for that 10 mins. show that we are of one voice to the audience and judges. let your voices touch their hearts. not to forget, enjoy every part of this 'battle'... and that will do...

i will be at home praying for the best and looking forward to hearing the good news...

i hope that along with my part, you all will sing it to the best ability...

...

i really wish i can join you guys. but please, at least let me have the chance to see how you guys perform and that will really really do. please...

do i have the chance?

can i?

will i?

no...

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